i never had any real career aspirations. sure, there were things i enjoyed doing but i thought of them more as hobbies. college was hard for me because i was never working towards anything i was excited about. i always thought, if i figure out what i really want to do, i can get through this school thing. but none of the possibilites seemed like more than just a way to get by and make money so i could stop working someday.
i didn't grow up imagining my perfect wedding or the house i would live in. having children was the only consistent dream i had for my future. i was always excited to have my own family. i couldn't wait to be a mom, but i thought there was something wrong with that. i thought i should want more for myself.
now that i have these two, i know being a mom is enough for me. i feel at peace. this is my purpose. i'm where i'm supposed to be. sure, some days are rough and redundant, but the moments of joy make those excruciating times worth it. my children are my passion and anything else i do will be just a side gig.
